Does Anyone Like to Plan Like I do?

Technically, I was supposed to end my fast last night at 10pm.
Even though I was fasting, I still consumed 330 caloires. My friend bought me a venti pumpkin spice (non fat, no whip) even though I asked for a tall...
I know I didn't have to drink it, but I was so exhausted. Ana hasn't stopped bitching about that.
I think I burned most of it off, though.
Anyway! The fast continues! In about 45 minutes I'll be at 36 hours. I'm aiming now for 48. Hopefully I can do it... mom is away and there's a lot of foods I could binge and purge on.
No.
I need to be skinny.
Need.
Right now I suppose I'm classified as a 'wannarexic'.
I'm fat, and I fail practically every day.
I know a lot of people say "it doesn't matter what size you are if you're struggling" blah blah blah.
Bullshit.
Bullfuckingshit.
I'm losing this weight.